The Next Goal

August 14, 2006

261.5 That was my weight this morning. When I started almost three months to the day, I weighed 294. That’s a pretty nice drop but alas there is still more to be done. Actually I’m fine with that. While I feel good, I don’t feel ready to stop.

I found breaking things down to small goals helped me. The first goal was to make it to vacation lighter than I was and obviously I did that. Sure, I would have loved to be exactly where I wanted to be but at least I wasn’t as self-consious as I would have been if I didn’t do anything.

Now that vacation is over, what’s the next short-term event? I can think of a couple of different things. One, my doctor wanted to see me in four months so I have a month or so to get ready for that. The second would be when I take my daughter to school. It would be nice to look much different than last year when I took her. Yes, that’s definitely shallow but sometimes that’s enough.


Saturday Check-In

July 23, 2006

My usual day off from the gym is Sunday so once I’m done on Saturday morning, I can look back at the week that was and figure out if I need to change anything. On Monday, I started with a new workout, taken from the initial article about Turburlence Training found here. It’s for 3 days a week and mainly works the upper body mixed with interval training cardio. I must say that I definitely feel the workouts. I also did legs Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday along with working on my abs. It’s been a real good week for that.

When I weighed myself this morning, I was at 269 which is 26 pounds lighter than when I started back in May. Still a long way to go but I’m happy with where I am. I’ve started thinking of where I am as my new base. I don’t ever want to be that unhealthy again.

Mondays and Thursdays

July 17, 2006

I’ll keep going on the back story in another post but for now, I just want to talk about my office environment on every Monday and Thursday. It is a minefield for me in the mornings. Mondays see fresh, hot doughnuts being brought in and Thursdays, it’s bagels. I love both but probably doughnuts more than anything. There just really isn’t anything like it.

Of course, as I’m working on my health and fitness, having a doughnut (or three since I can’t just stop at one) doesn’t seem the most appropriate choice and obviously it isn’t.

Today though was a bit different since I saw the pink boxes filled with wonderful-tasting fatness, I looked at them but I didn’t take one. I didn’t want to ruin the good workout I had this morning and the work I’ve been doing. It would take less that 20 seconds to eat the whole thing and it might have been worth it on some level but then not only would I have eaten something truly awful for me but I’d also beat myself up about all day and that has led to additional doughnuts or trips to McDonald’s because I figure what’s the use.

Instead, I grabbed my apple from the refrigerator and a new bottle of water and headed back to my office, no harm done. I’m not going to say that I can withstand any temptation now but for today, I’m happy I stared down the beast and calmly walked away.

The Back Story Part 1

July 13, 2006

My relationship with my body hasn’t been a good one. The days of my not having some sort of belly or weight problem happened way back in first grade. Somehow back then, I was a normal kid without any body issues but then, the blizzard of ’78 happened and I couldn’t go outside other than for school and so all I did was sit in the front of the TV, play my Atari and eat, or at least that’s the story my mom always tells. I can’t say for sure whether that started me down the path to being overweight but it’s a good story so I’ll use it.

The majority of the story can be skipped over with this Cliff Notes version: After high school, I didn’t do much exercise nor watch what I ate so my waistline expanded. Now, we’ll talk about the current situation. In the early part of May, I came down with something and it kicked my ass. I had an infection in my throat, a fever going all the way up to 103 and the combination of being overheated and having the chills. I went to the doctor for the first time in over 10 years, got some antibiotics and eventually got better. The only good thing to come out of it was that I made another appointment to have a physical.

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous going into it. Nervousness quickly moved to other emotions as I had to step on the scale. When you are overweight, I think your mind keeps you thinking you aren’t as bad as you more than likely are. That was definitely my problem as I waited for the readout to show what I weighed. I was not prepared to see 304 pounds. Breaking the 300-pound barrier caused all of the warnings I’ve heard and read as well as the looks I would get from my parents to flood back into my head and overwhelm me. I was in a funk the rest of the day. The physical itself didn’t go too badly considering my weight. That was really the only health issue I had, everything else was doing fine.

Of course, I did what anyone would normally do after that appointment, I went and ordered a Double-Double from In-n-Out and wallowed in self-pity. But you can only do that for so long and eventually I came to a fork in the road. One path lead to continued weight gain and possibly an early death while the other would hopefully bring me back to clothes fitting and better health. I didn’t know which one I would choose for the long-term but the short-term, I wanted to try and get healthy.

My next post will talk about how I started and where I currently am.

Reboot Yourself

July 13, 2006

This isn’t my first blog nor will it be my last I’m sure but it does feel a bit different. I signed up for this name back in November with the idea of using it as a soundboard for new ideas I was having related to my job and my industry. Of course, nothing really came of it so the site had nothing on it.

But now, I’m going to start it up for real and instead of looking towards work for content, it’s going to be a bit more personal or at least that’s the current plan. I’m currently in the process of rebooting myself. The whole story will be the subject of another post but suffice it to say, I didn’t like the way I looked or felt and I’ve finally done something about it.

So, I’m hoping to document this starting today and we’ll see where I end up.